Wednesday, 29 September 2010
So here I lay, large plug in my ass, rampant rabbit in my c*nt (I may have issues saying that word!), bands on my nipples, writhing about begging and pleading to be allowed to cum. It wont happen, Sir is evidently feeling very sadistic today, but it's always worth a try, right?!
This is all made worse by the fact that I am an ass slut. I really love anal, I mean really love anal! I cannot possibly explain to you how much I love having something large in my ass, specifically is said large object hurts and/or is attached to a sadist who the proceeds to fuck my ass until it is raw, it brings a whole new meaning to the term "it hurts so good!"
Did I mention that I was an ass slut?!
Ever the sadist Sir has just declared that I may cum, but only if I go for a 10 minute walk with the large plug in. Given that public humiliation is a huge turn on, but also a huge fear, for me and that I am currently in a desperate situation, I'm going to give it a shot! "Horny" doesn't even begin to cover it right now!
Gah, by the end of today I shall be a little pool of submissiveness on the floor!
Tuesday, 28 September 2010
Or lack of it in my case. As a submissive I take great pleasure in handing over control of all aspects of my life to the person I am playing with, currently that is my Sir. When we started playing he assumed control of my clothing and my orgasms as well as my training. I absolutely love to have him tell me what I can and can't wear, it makes me feel like such a good little girl to do as I'm told and I love that :) It also allows me to be slutty without having to take responsibility for it! There are things that I would never wear/do if it wasn't for him telling me to and it become a constant reminder for the whole day that I am his.
Firstly, being horny the whole time makes me feel very submissive! Knowing that no matter how close I come to orgasm I'm not allowed to go over that edge makes me so happy, it makes me feel owned. I love to know that he can take me whenever he likes, and I know that he loves it too.
The most difficult part of Sir's clothing control has been the removal of panties. Panties are, for me, an essential part of my clothing. I only ever remove them for showers and sex, other than that I am guaranteed to be wearing some form of pant. Sir immediately recognised this boundary and put a ban on panties at home, meaning that if I was in the house I was not allowed to wear them, mean mean man! It has been a huge personal challenge for me to make the progress that I have with this and, amazingly, with his encouragement I have spent an entire day panty free, a work day I might add, in a skirt. I have walked home several times with no panties on and spent most of my time at home without them. It has saved me a huge amount of washing! I could never do it on my own, I would feel far to vulnerable, but feeling vulnerable for him is so wonderful :)