Tuesday, 27 March 2012

30 Days of Kink: Day 26

What’s your opinion on online BDSM play?

I have a love/hate relationship with online play; I love the people it gives me chance to play with and the things I learn through playing with them, but I hate the lack of sensation, in that my (albeit mild) masochism struggles to be sated. I find that after a while I am longing for a meet up and to feel their hands on me, to live out in reality what we have discussed.

I love being able to run my hands over people and feel their hands on me. I love the feel of a strong hand on my neck as a cock forces its way into me. I love to feel.

For me online is no replacement for the real thing and it could never be the relationship I have with my soul mate, but it does fill a hole (so to speak) in my life when I can't express my sexuality 'in real life.'

 

Saturday, 24 March 2012

Libido

I want to preface this post by pointing out that I spent over an hour trying to remember the word for "sex drive!"...

My libido has always been a bit hit and miss. As a young teen when my hormones first kicked in it was definitely a hit, but when I hit 16 or 17 it was downhill and it's never really picked up properly since.

That might seem odd given that I write a kink blog and consider myself a kinky person, but I think that's why I wanted to write about it, to ponder aloud what the hell my libido is playing at!

There are times that usually last from a week to a month where I can't get enough, where I am rampantly horny, dream of sex, masturbate often and want nothing more than a man (always a man in that case) to grab me, force me to the bed and have his, oh so evil (yet consensual), way with me.

However, the rest of the time months will pass without even a hint of lust. If it weren't for someone mentioning it, it wouldn't even cross my mind. It isn't a need or a want, in fact it becomes something I dislike and want nothing to do with when it does come into my field of vision (so to speak). Those times might be easy right now, while I'm single, but in a relationship it's hard.

So there it is, laid out for you! I'm a part-time kinkster and I don't want to be! Any tips and tricks?

Tuesday, 13 March 2012

30 Days of Kink: Day 30

Whatever BDSM/kink related thing you want to write about.

 On not being X/Y/Z enough


I go through phases of kink. I'm kinky all the time, but there are times, a lot of times, where I don't feel kinky enough. There's so many 'hardcore' kinksters out there and I find it impossible to not compare myself with them: they don't mind doing this, they love that, they do all these things I can't...it goes on.

So now is one of those times where I find myself pondering if I should just drop out of kink for good and accept that I'm never going to be a good submissive because of my limitations and fears that I shan't go into here, well, not right now anyway. Suffice to say they are unchangeable.

I don't want to, when I don't feel like this I love kink and when I'm enjoying it with someone special it's the best thing ever, but right now I have no one special (in a LTR sense) and am beating myself up about all my failings and wondering if it's worth it. Afterall, it's supposed to be fun, not a lesson in all the things you suck at/can't do.

The 2 Dom's I'm currently playing with are understanding, but I still feel like I'm letting them down all the time and I hate that, but I can't just magically change who I am and how I am.

*sighs*

I shall now stop rambling and promise a naughty post next time.

http://www.insatiabledesire.com/2010/08/09/thirty-days-of-kink/

Tuesday, 6 March 2012

30 Days of Kink: Day 29

Do you have a BDSM title (e.g. mistress, master, slut, pig, whore, princess, goddess, ma’am, sir)?  What is your opinion of the use of titles in general?

In general my title of choice is "girl," interspersed with "whore," "dirty slut," and suchlike. I'm more of a little than a submissive; I like to be loved as well as used. I like to mean something to the person I'm playing with and have a Daddy to look after me, especially in long term relationships.

I like the use of titles, for me they help to establish the boundaries and rules, it's a sign that I must remember my place and stay there. It also reminds me how much I love my place!

30 Days of Kink: Day 7

What's your favourite toy?

The Bcurious from Bswish.

I'm assuming you want more than that...

What's to say, it's a vibrator, but it's gorgeously shaped and beautiful and it has loads of settings and is packaged amazingly and is just perfect! And it gives me awesome orgasms.