Thursday, 20 March 2014

Demanding & Impatient

I'm not a patient person. I am a fairly high maintenance and demanding person.

This does not make for good subservience. And yet that is the role which I connect to; that of submissive.

It's something I'm working on, I don't want to be so...annoyingly needy, I'm conscious of it, that's the first step I imagine; know your enemy! And that's how I'm trying to treat this part of myself, like my enemy. I'm hoping that with a concerted effort I can boot out my demanding, impatient traits and usher in an era of patient submission.

It's tough though. Trying to change deep rooted things about yourself is never going to be easy, but I am determined. I want to be the best sub I can be, and part of that means not constantly pestering, being able to just be.

I think part of it comes from doing the long distance thing and winding up hurt, it makes trusting difficult and the way I appear to be dealing with my trust issues is by demanding attention all the time. But that's no excuse, and I know, in time, I can get over it.

But if anyone has any tips on how to deal with impatience and a demanding nature do please let me know! Thanks in advance!

1 comment:

  1. Very good desire- have you done meditation? there are many ways to do meditation- no one way is correct