Do you feel slavehood is a calling?
I so want to say yes to this question, I would love to be so confident in myself, my sex drive, my urges to serve that I could scream "yes, slavehood is calling me" from the rooftops. But I don't think it is.
I identify as submissive, no doubts about that, but I am also very...selfish I suppose. I know what I want, how I want it and I want to be involved in my relationship decision making too. I want to feel like a submissive equal, if that makes sense?
I want a 24/7 D/s relationship, but I want my say in the big decisions too. Now, I know some 24/7 D/s relationships allow for that, but I don't want to blindly wander into slavehood with my Dominant assuming that everything is deferred to them. I have thoughts and opinions and knowledge and I want to feel able to share that.
Maybe, in fact very probably, my idea of slavehood is totally wrong, but to me a slave has much less say in the relationship, the big decisions, etc than a submissive and I don't feel comfortable identifying as a slave. At least not yet, maybe in time that will change, with the right person maybe I will trust enough to give up all decision making and control, but right now, at this moment, I'm too much of a control freak to let go all the way!